I shall use duck tape please!

Last night at church a friend told the nicest story of the visit she had had during supper. She told of the things she had learned about the economy from the conversation. I should have just smiled and nodded but nooooo I had to jump in and tell about how great my knowledge of this subject is and how I read the Wall Street Journal... When I looked back at my friend, I expected to see a look of admiration in her eyes about how great I am and instead it was maybe pity or even better 'bless Ellen's heart here she goes again blowing her own horn '

Am I ever going to learn to just shut up and listen? Why do I feel the need to let everyone know just how wonderful I think I am? When I replay the conversation in my head it makes me sick to my stomach.

Today I hope I have the courage to go to my friend and ask her forgiveness for being such a jerk and then I am going to put tape on my mouth. I know I need to have my heart cleaned and I am praying it will be a gentle cleaning but I know I need bleach and a scouring pad.